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It’s Christmas again! It’s that time of year where everything seems to be on a knife edge between wonderful and woeful. I’m currently staying with family, which for me brings with it the joy of seeing people I love who I haven’t seen much all year, but also brings the stress of big crowds and the worry of how (and whether) to explain to more distant relatives why I suddenly get twitchy and have to leave the room.

This year I’ve been working hard on baby steps and also on noticing what I’m feeling and thinking about how to deal with it. Bringing those two together I’ve made a Christmas resolution: When I feel I can’t cope socialising any more I’ll steal away. I’ll go somewhere quiet and read or listen to music or make something until I feel better. I’ve decided that this year I’m going to ignore all those feelings of guilt over not spending enough time with my relatives and take time for myself when I need it. After all, they probably won’t get much from my company if I’m just trying to keep up a cheerful face, right?

I want all of you out there to think about yourself this christmas too. I’m not telling you to be selfish, mind, but to remember that you’re not going to help anyone by driving yourself to the brink of tears to make christmas “perfect” for other people… although I know a lot of you will be tempted to try! Your loved ones want you to be happy and enjoy the season too. Don’t deny them, or yourself, that.

Umm… does anyone else make christmas resolutions, or is it just me?

Oh, and I almost forgot…
Have a great time over the next few days!